Happy Book Birthday to ‘The Nectar of Nightmares’

The book came together quickly, at the request of the editor Darin Bradley (who’s an author in his own right). It collects my most recent publishing credits. The book is dedicated to the memory of a friend of mine, Eric Mueller, who suddenly died in 2020. I am proud of this little book of stories.

Below, I’ll share some brief non-spoiler notes.

Beneath the Briar Patch

This is a retelling of an African-American folktale, and is injected with some Cosmic Horror

Myth and Moor

This gothic tale stars the Queen of gothic fiction, Miss Emily Brontë

Fur and Gold

This is a horror-touched queer retelling of a fairytale. (The title comes from a Bat for Lashes song).

Black-Winged Roses

Set in the Harlem Renaissance, this story exists in the same ‘universe’ as my previous stories ‘Zoe Coalrose’ and ‘Conjuring Shadows’. (The title comes from a Tori Amos song).


This Weird Fiction is inspired by my Aunt Evelyn’s collection of Flo-Blue (or Flown Blue) plates


Flowers and mirrors feature in this queer horror tale. (Title courtesy of the late Tanith Lee).

Eidolon Realty, LLC

A flash piece inspired by the time I worked in the investment industry


Flash piece — Jack Vance meets Jean Genet


Secondary world queer horror fantasy

The Magus Club

Inspired by the queer playwright Joe Orton’s lone weird novel, Head to Toe

Spyder Threads

Cosmic horror meets drag couture


My vampire story with a trans heroine

Sacred She-Devil

Inspired by Umdanba mythology

The Nectar of Nightmares

An oneiric horror novelette

Muses — Patricia A. McKillip (February 29, 1948 – May 6, 2022) 

I love words. Beautiful language and prose is my jam. I can taste the quality of prose in a synaesethic kind of way. Some prose has a “clean” taste, like unsalted butter. And some prose is rich and luxurious, like a chocolate truffle. I fell in love with fantasy fiction because the language of myth and fairytale has a certain flavor that I find irresistible. It’s floral, like vanilla, and bitter like dark chocolate with a mouthfeel like clotted cream. 

And no-one captured that mythic flavor in prose more than Patricia A McKillip. I read The Forgotten Beasts of Eld when I was a teenager and immediately wrote her fan letter, (which was returned as undeliverable). The elegiac tone she’d captured was singularly haunting. The prose sang, was almost like a spell cast. She kept writing in that mode for all of career in many books—The Alphabet of Thorn, Solstice Wood, The Book of Atrix Wolfe—and many others. Her words were—-are—-incantatory and numinous. They swim and float across the page. Sometimes dismissed as flowery or purple, her language is central to the dreamlike plots of her novels. There is a jewel-like precision to her craft that I think that some critics miss. A couple of critics (and a friend) referred to her work with fairy tales as being the lighter cousin to Tanith Lee’s word-drunk. But I think there’s a tone of deep time and profound sorrow that always played in the background of her writing. Her characters always seemed melancholic, even if they were clever or humorous.

I had the pleasure of meeting McKillip a decade or so ago in New York. She was in town for a book reading, and I went out to lunch with her, Ellen Datlow, Jane Yolen and her husband David Lunde. She was sweet and soft-spoken, and I felt that I was in the presence of quiet genius.  McKillip’s ethereal work is a deep influence (I’m ethereallad on Social Media partially inspired by her).  I find her influence in many contemporary fantasists. Her voice will be missed.

Balticon Schedule

Below is my Balticon schedule. I hope to have copies of THE NECTAR OF NIGHTMARES for my signing and reading. I’m really excited to see everyone. (Yes, I saw that they misspelled my name).

Sowing the Seeds of Hope: The Parable of the Sower Opera by Toshi and Bernice Johnson Reagon

Toshi and Bernice Johnson Reagon’s adaptation of Octavia Butler’s dystopian novel Parable of the Sower is both texturally and metatexually rich. Part rock opera, part concert, part revival, the performance uses Butler’s novel as a reference point rather than being a literal translation of the narrative. Toshi, flanked by two women, not only narrates the action, she also contextualizes Butler’s thematic concerns, and frequently breaks the fourth wall. The audience is encouraged at certain points during the performance to join in by clapping along, and the actors often roam among the seats.

Sower’s plot in the novel is the first person narration of Lauren Olamina who lives in a US on the verge of social and economic collapse. She lives with her family in a gated community with her family and other like-minded people, mostly sheltered from the chaos outside the gates. In this world, capitalism has deformed into mega-corporations that exploit their workers, climate change has turned the West Coast drought-ravaged and wild-fire prone, and the breakdown of social services has given rise to lawlessness and addiction to a drug, Pyro, which makes the addict crave arson. Though she lives in relative safety, Lauren is a Cassandra-type prophet who can see that it’s only a matter of time before what’s outside comes in. First, her rebellious older brother ventures outside and returns injured. Then her beloved father never returns from his weekly visit outside. Finally, the gates are breached by a violent gang. Lauren becomes a de facto leader of the survivors as they search for a safe new settlement. Along the way, Lauren “sows the seeds” of her pragmatic philosophy, called Earthseed. Earthseed proposes that God is Change, and you can either resist or be proactive about shifts in circumstance. Pretty soon, Lauren gathers followers, who see hope and solace in her carefully curated believes.

The Reagons’ score tells the story through songs that mix folk, blues, rock and gospel. All of the performers (including Toshi Reagon, who also plays guitar) have sterling voices. Marie Tatti Aqeel, who plays Lauren, has a particularly powerful solo that showcases her full range in a song about her missing father. Reagon’s frequent informal asides were witty and referenced current events that Butler eerily predicted, from oligarchy to cryptocurrency to social media’s corrosive effect on the population. (Butler also predicted the rise of a populist nativist who would Make American Great again in the follow-up Parable of the Talents). Somehow, Reagon and her mother turned the dark pessimistic story into a joyous explosion of hopeful survival. Much like Earthseed’s tenets. The final song in the opera was a chillingly beautiful rendition of what sounded like a call-and-response gospel hymn.

It’s a celebration of resilience and community.

-Seen on April 29, 2022 at the Strathmore Music Center

Buzz In the Press for “The Nectar of Nightmares”

The forthcoming book, THE NECTAR OF NIGHTMARES, was written about twice this week, getting some buzz. Looking forward to have people read the book! June 7th can’t come soon enough!

5 Reimagined Gothic Books to Give You the Creeps, from the Lineup

Can’t Miss Indie Press Speculative Fiction for May and June 2022 from Tor.com

(I’ve decided to celebrate the release by treating myself to see Icelandic postrock band Sigur Ros the eve of the release).

Watch this space for some unboxing photos when I get my author copies!

Confessions of a Sensitivity Reader

Every  now and then, someone complains about Sensitivity Readers. The very concept offends some authors. Detractors view it as Political Correctness (or “wokeness”) run amok. I am a Sensitivity Reader. In fact, most of my writing money comes from Sensitivity Reading. (I can’t disclose clients, but I’ve worked for the Big Five). I hope that I can demystify the process.

First, and foremost, the name Sensitivity (or Authenticity) Reader is somewhat misleading. I suppose it conjures up the image of a permanently outraged censor who adheres to a draconian ideology that who transforms passionate works of art into doctrinaire cookie-cutter fiction that tows an identitarian line. 

This could not be further from the truth. It’s more in line with fact-checking and quality control. Nuance and understanding subtext are key factors in the skillset. The point is, authors who want to write diversely sometimes have blind spots. They might find themselves lacking the nuances that their characters have to navigate. My role is point things out—to offer suggestions, to make sure that the author’s portrayal is accurate. My notes are never prescriptive. I am always open to the possibility of misreading things accord to my own biases. When I get the assignments, it is always understood that my reactions to the text are an individual Black queer point of view, and that I don’t speak for all Black queer people. My role is just as a specialized Beta reader.

I’ve never found anything egregious in all the work I’ve done. The biggest issue I’ve come across? One client set his novel in Washington, DC (my hometown and current base of operations) and there wasn’t single Black person in mentioned in the novel. (DC’s demographic are roughly 45% Black, 42% white). Another client had a character that was close to being a ‘magical negro.’ In both cases, the authors were grateful that I had shared my observations, and they incorporated my suggestions into their work. If authors disagree with my assessments, or think I missed a point, that’s valid as well. It’s just getting a specialized version of an Editorial Letter, which tend to be even more brutal.

For those who can’t hire a Sensitivity Reader, you can check out Writing the Other for a comprehensive list of resources.

Obviously, there are works that don’t require the use of Sensitivity Readers. If your work takes place 3000 years in the future with nonhuman characters or in a secondary world without our history, it’s not, in my opinion, necessary. That being said, every work could use an extra set of eyes.

The purpose of Authenticity (or Sensitivity) readers is make a good book even better. That’s the aim, not to appease a mob of “woke Social Justice Warriors.” 

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